Heh....

This thing we call life. how fun it is, huh?

I'll get to the point.

I'm upset.

"Why, Zachh?"

Because.

Because, I'm back at school, because Inevitably I am alone.

Because, people look at me and judge me, based on the way I appear, at first glance.

I don't know....School is so consuming, and the more I think about it, the more depressed I feel.

It makes me think all us, humans are just little worker ants in an empty galaxy ruining everything around us, and living out each of our lives with no purpose.

When I get to thinking about that kind of stuff, I end up breaking down and hyperventilating, so yeah, lets avoid that, Please.

So...Yeah...I like a girl at school, But this "relationsips" thing is so complicated and impossible for me...

I mean, I like her, but I also like someone else....(Who is taken... -.-), and I "like" another girl, but she lives in another country completley.

so, Yeah I have a well...."love" issue, I just seem to always ruin it in the end, regardless, so I'm not sure what do do about it all..

Perhaps I will ask the one at school "out" She seems very nice, and, as it seems, has me very much falling in love with her...x3

On the other hand, I've been walking around school everyday like a total basket-case, and I've been wearing fake glasses....(you know, like the fake plastic ones you get when you see 3D movies at the theater?)

I call them my "self-esteem" glasses. I like to wear them when I feel like hiding from the world. Not because, I'm ashamed of who I am, but just when I get so overwhlmed, I wish I was someone else, perhaps someone else who is better than I am....Because I honestly feel like I'm not that desirable of a person. ( Zachh = :[ )

yeah, I mean a good few people, say they really care about me, and tell me I'm wonderful, and have changed thier lives and such....but, I really doubt myself...

I really wish I knew what people thought of me, I think it may help me have a better outlook on myself...

Anyhow....I'm not even sure there's a point to this, Except, Obviously to express my feelings, which as it seems to be, I have done.

So, Until later, I love you all, Ya' know. <3

Sincerely, Zachh. ~ "Destiny is certian, but life is certainly Inevitable."

P.S - I REALLY think I'm going to ask this girl out...because I do really like her...But I think for now I should take it slow, and just be her friend, Because, I do care for her, very much so. <3